tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58071991902533009642024-03-14T01:57:02.682-05:00The Inner Musings of a Determined HeartThe musings of the heart of a momma of 4 kiddos, a wife, and a girl just trying to find her way.
Come with me on this journey of life and let's learn together!Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.comBlogger31125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-83590860397648118722012-07-10T13:34:00.002-05:002012-07-10T14:34:28.692-05:00I took a stand todayI took a stand today. I was nervous to do it. I agonized over the wording. I worried I'd offend someone.
But I did it.
I stood up for what I believe.
My stand was this: I WILL NOT be reading the book "Fifty Shades of Grey".
And you know, its not simply the ONE book that I won't be reading. I've been feeling lately that romance novels (the ones with 'bedroom scenes', to use Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-32418655814958108182012-07-08T10:41:00.002-05:002012-07-08T10:41:46.075-05:00JournalingI've started keeping a journal.
I used to keep one, but I found that physically writing was ridiculously hard and took me forever. I type sooo much faster than I can write. So, I'm keeping a typed journal. I really like it so far.
I was having a hard time blogging because I would end up almost journaling my thoughts on here. And so, on good days and bad ones I would find myself blogging. And itKimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-57847930558916059122012-07-07T08:57:00.001-05:002012-07-07T08:57:44.204-05:00AnswersWow. I woke up this morning and was scrolling through FaceBook while I drank my SPARK and *BAM* God kinda hit me in the face with answers to my questions from last night.
Here's what I read:
Wouldn't it be powerful if you fell in love with yourself so deeply that you would do just about anything if you knew it would make you happy? This is precisely how much life loves you and wants you Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-89529360056698929112012-07-06T23:00:00.000-05:002012-07-06T23:00:01.177-05:00Wishing...You know something? Sometimes I wish I was different.
As I blogged this morning about my day, as I thought about how wonderful my life is and how blessed I am, I realized that the one thing that I am not completely happy with is me. I often feel like I'm not good enough or like I'm not capable of adequately taking care of all I've been given. I wonder why I've been so blessed. The fact thatKimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-228881579607582352012-07-06T12:19:00.000-05:002012-07-06T12:47:05.677-05:00A day in the life of meI had BIG plans yesterday of having all the kiddos in bed by 7p. *laughing hysterically at my
naiveté *
Around 9p I finally got the 3 younger babies in bed, by 10:30p I had all 4 of them in their beds, and by 11p they were all FINALLY asleep. By then I felt the need to relax and grabbed a bubble bath and a book. And as a result I didn't go to sleep until 2a. Oops.
I'm just a bit Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-4613500958459152842012-06-21T13:31:00.002-05:002012-06-21T13:46:49.698-05:00Father's Day 2012
Just for the record, my kids have the best Dad in the world.
I'm not kidding.
The man is amazing.
So, for Father's Day this year I wanted to do something more than just a card from the store that the kids all signed. I decided to get the kiddos involved and make something to show him how awesome we think he is. The project we picked was a homemade candy card. We Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-4894666004721235352012-06-20T16:36:00.003-05:002012-06-20T16:36:46.461-05:00Timely ReminderIt's been one of those days.
I feel like I've been saying that a lot lately.
I've yelled at my kids more than I'd like to admit, I've actually thrown a small basket of toys down onto the floor, I've slammed a door once (okay, fine, I did it twice) and I've just been rather unpleasant to be around.
I'm frustrated.
I'm overwhelmed.
And the kiddos didn't get the "let's be perfect angels for Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-5627646179124369652012-06-20T12:09:00.001-05:002012-06-20T18:10:13.446-05:00The Difference a Year MakesExactly one year ago this past month, I was in a place in my life where I was kind of running out of hope. I was really sick (I had severe postpartum depression) and I was so doped up on prescription medication to help me cope, I was just miserable. I felt like a zombie and it was affecting every aspect of my life. My health was in decline, my relationships were suffering, and I just wasn't Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-52916157129560768232012-06-14T14:35:00.000-05:002012-06-14T20:26:02.915-05:00Blessed
My boys are misbehaving.
My body is weary.
My house is a wreck.
But I'm still thankful.....
I have two healthy boys.
I have a sound mind.
I have a roof over my head.
I am blessed.
Sweating the small stuff today..... because even when the day isn't perfect, even when things don't go my way, I am still blessed, I am still in His perfect will, and I will choose joy.
When my body is Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-51396360803812108692012-06-12T06:00:00.000-05:002012-06-12T06:00:00.173-05:00Beginning AgainWhen I think back on my inner turmoil these last few years and think of why I kept hitting a brick wall with my relationship with God, I realize that I was filled up with hurt, anger, resentment, and even bitterness - even though I never really realized that it was those things. It just felt like an emptiness - sometimes I'd feel it strongly, sometimes less so - that I couldn't explain Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-53715615184628845412012-06-11T12:48:00.000-05:002012-06-11T12:50:06.752-05:00LoveI woke up this morning with a smile, a light heart, and the joy that comes only from the Father.
The special song from service yesterday is still going in my mind.
All I can think about is that I'm so thankful for the mercy of the Father. I'm so grateful that He died for sinners like me.
I have struggled so much with the judgement that 'Christians' have shown me and others who have failed. Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-21833379667664765722012-06-10T15:33:00.001-05:002012-06-10T15:33:49.570-05:00My Daddy Loves MeGuess what! ....I learned something today..... All the determination in my little heart will never make me who I need/want/desire to be. And no matter how hard I try, I'll never get there on my own.
I also learned that the same God who has forgiven me for the things I have done, for the times I have failed, for the mess I've made of my life - oh, the list can go on and on - That Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-78896655750430738572012-06-07T13:42:00.006-05:002012-07-08T16:26:55.336-05:00Inner StruggleI wrote this several weeks back, and I think I'm ready to post it. I'm on a journey of transparency, of learning that the ugliness of my human heart is not something brand new to God, and that in becoming transparent He can do His work in me. So, here it is....my inner struggle.
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Sometimes I find myself fighting a battle within myself that I'm not sure I want to share Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-23262971832453699932012-05-22T08:52:00.002-05:002012-05-22T10:44:54.430-05:00Celebrating 7 Amazing Years
Happy 7th Anniversary to my sweetheart
It was 8 years ago, today, that I met this amazing man.
He instantly stole my heart and my life was forever changed.
I have been blessed beyond measure because of the gift of his love that he gave me.
Ten months after we met he proposed, first to Mia
- he asked her if he could be her Daddy -
and then to me.
We were married 8 weeks laterKimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-1200409326345344632012-05-14T16:51:00.000-05:002012-05-14T17:05:19.697-05:00Letting GoHave you ever found yourself walking around a little bit dazed, feeling a little bit empty, a whole lot confused, and not really knowing why you are feeling that way? This is the place I've found myself lately. I'm feeling a little disoriented....not really sure what my purpose is or where I'm supposed to be headed. I mean, I know my purpose so far as the "mommy/wife" role, but I'm Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-68871336043009470622012-05-04T12:41:00.000-05:002012-05-22T12:55:12.481-05:00Bring on the torture!I went to an AdvoCare mixer last night and, after it was over, all of us 'AdvoLadies' hung out and chatted about life, this journey we are on, the struggles we've faced/are facing, and encouraged each other to take it all to the next level. (Have I mentioned lately how awesome it is to have such amazing friends in my life? I am so incredibly blessed to be surrounded by women who have positive&Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-39985150473581127552012-05-01T09:10:00.000-05:002012-05-01T09:10:10.018-05:00What's on my mind...Life has a way of getting crazy busy and making time just slip right on by. Have you ever noticed that? I remember when summer seemed to drraaaaggg on and on, and now it flies right on by.
As I get older, and as my children are growing up so stinkin' fast, I am learning the art of slowing down, relishing the moment I'm in, and realizing that it's okay if "the list" doesn't get accomplished.Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-56927189853867508162012-03-14T22:37:00.000-05:002012-03-14T23:44:20.604-05:00IntrospectionI have come to realize that I'm really good at being aware of when I'm doing something wrong and determining in my heart to fix it. In the process, I'm realizing that I'm not so great at giving myself a pat on the back for the things I do right. So, I think in all fairness to myself it's time I recognize what talents, gifts, and strengths God has given me.
I am a good friend.
I love deeply.
I am Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-80967875658339674682012-03-14T12:58:00.000-05:002012-03-14T12:58:39.031-05:00Struggles and PerspectiveDid you know that it takes effort to be positive? Did you know that our basic human nature says that life is hard, things aren't always great, and that we CAN'T do it all? I bet you didn't think I ever feel like that....I get told that often. People think I have it all together, that my life is a bunch of sunshine and daisies, and I am always happy. Ummmm....nope. Hate to break it to ya, butKimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-1868542225684486062012-03-13T13:06:00.000-05:002012-03-13T13:06:04.883-05:00Attitude is a choiceHey there, my friends! Today has been one of "those days". You know, the kind that come once a month, last about a week, and cause you to drive everyone you love insane? Yeah, one of those days. BUT, I know that a bad attitude is a choice and I CHOOSE to NOT have one. :) So, I've spent some time talking to God about it - speaking of, He is the very best friend ever. He totally listens, gets what Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-40312575479177771822012-03-03T12:42:00.000-06:002012-03-03T12:42:34.600-06:00Keeping my eye on the prizeI'm on a journey of transformation. I want to transform from the inside to the outside - but just as I'm working hard to transform on the inside, I have to put some effort into transforming the outside of me. So, I'm on a weight loss journey as well.
I recently found a cool pin on Pinterest that I thought is a GREAT visual for weight loss. I went to Walmart last night and got what I needed to Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-48767886125360540022012-03-02T14:30:00.000-06:002012-03-02T14:30:10.448-06:00Awesome Mail-Day!Today I decided to check the mail. I usually let Mia get it when she gets off of the bus, but for some reason I decided to do it myself today. And boy am I glad I did! :) I had THREE packages waiting on me! I was so excited! Two had girly things I had ordered for myself and for my girls, but the 3rd was the one that caught me by surprise!
Kurt and I recently hit a milestone with AdvoCare Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-88771254419356577112012-02-28T13:10:00.001-06:002012-03-02T13:59:17.726-06:00SeasonsMy favorite season is Autumn. I even like the word Autumn. It's pretty! The whole season is just gorgeous...I mean, not really where I happen to live, but I know how beautiful it can be! haha! My Aunt always used to say, "We don't have fall in this part of Texas. We just have 'fell'. We wake up one morning and all the leaves are just on the ground. They fell overnight." It is sooooKimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-88215197939117156832012-02-27T14:22:00.004-06:002012-02-27T14:40:54.450-06:00Words"Your words create your world" is a statement that has completely gotten in my gut. I have realized that life and death, truly are, in the tongue. That what I say DOES impact my life.
So many things in my life have tried to teach me this!
"Think before you speak!"
"Listen more than you talk!"
"Positiveness is important!"
And then that got me to thinking...what does the Bible say Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807199190253300964.post-11908102771825168592012-02-10T13:24:00.000-06:002012-02-10T13:31:44.804-06:00Pj's and PuzzlesI read a blog yesterday that completely changed my world. How many times have I been Mount Saint Mommy and erupted over the smallest little thing?! "OH MY WORD? REALLY!?! You dropped CRUMBS on my CARPET! GET TO THE TABLE!!!" As if the world was about to end right this minute if my kid dropped another crumb on a totally vacuum-able floor. In that moment, what should have been more important? Kimberlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11050117942004451202noreply@blogger.com0