Okay, humor me for a minute....You know how the moment arrives when you find yourself standing in your kitchen, back to the closest counter, wondering how in the world your day ended up here?!? And then you realize, oh wait, it's only 10am! #insert slight panic here#
Well, that's exactly where I found myself this morning. Kids fighting, phone ringing, stomach growling, and brain still a bit fuzzy from the lack of sleep the night before. I was struggling to bring it all into focus and figure out what to handle first. So, I grabbed for the ringing phone and answered it. BAD IDEA! It was a friend needing help with something - and I was in NO place to be offering solutions! LOL! Fortunately for me, she is a dear friend and understood where I was at, kindly allowed me to mutter a few random phrases of "helpful ideas" and let me off the phone.
And that brings me to this: Where in the WORLD would I be, if not for those few precious ladies I call 'friends'? The ones who know me - good and bad - and love me in spite of it all. The ones that know I have bad days, and are there to lift me up, edify my spirit, and love on me when I need it most.
I have to admit, I am one of the world's worst at just putting my head down, gritting my teeth, and marching on - and not really considering the cost to those people and things around me. This is something I am really working hard on. With the help of my amazing hubby and those friends dearest to me, I am making this new year a time of reprioritization and transparency. I want to keep the main things, the main things. And I want to be REAL. In every way. I want to love with my whole heart. I want to serve God with everything I am. I want to be the best momma I can possibly be. And I want to be the wife my husband needs. And I want to do it all AT THE SAME TIME! And I've quickly come to the realization that my mission is seriously "Mission Impossible"! Well, it is if I try to do it alone. ;) I'm realizing that my own humanity is exactly what holds me back. And I'm learning that if I will allow others to see me at my weakest, it will actually make me stronger.
So, today I'm laying it all out there for the world to see and I'm inviting you to search your own heart. Are you who you say you are? Are you actually becoming what you're pushing so hard to become? Or are you just creating havoc in the wake of your 'trying'? Let's get real, let's get transparent, and let's learn to lean on others to help us in those areas we are weak. My prayer is that, in doing so, we will strengthen each other, lift each other up, and become strong.
With all of my determined heart, I want to change my world. And I want to start with changing me.
Love,
Kim
